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Friday Finds

A few links I’ve been meaning to post FOREVER…

Babs has a new movie!

A data base of OSCAR WINNERS and the HIGHEST GROSSING MOVIES.

2012 Nicholl Fellowship Finalists.

A hilarious new video by the talented Nathan Gotsch.

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  1. Is it worth it? Why do I do it?

    To begin, I have to say that of the pressure’s life can throw at me, so far I have been spared two major ones:

    I don’t have children, and I don’t have student loans.

    That’s not to say that I don’t struggle to make ends meet, or feel down on myself, or try to figure out how to balance two non-creative jobs with time to follow my passions. I do. Absolutely. Every day.

    I do it because they are my passions. Because it was terrifying to even move out here, and because every once and a while something will go my way, and I’ve learned to appreciate those moments, because more often then not the answer is “No”.

    I do it because I before I moved out here I couldn’t get this feeling out of my head. I do it because the little boy inside of me REALLY wants it, and now the adult that I am gets satisfaction from knowing that at least I’m trying.

    I do it because I tried so many other jobs and career paths and couldn’t think of anything I’d be happier doing.

    I struggle to pay the rent each month. I accept jobs that take up my time and my energy. I stay awake at night fretting about my future.

    But every day I take one step. One step in the direction I want to be going. Write one page. Make one Hollywood connection. I always feel that I could be doing more, but I also know that for years I did a lot less.

    I don’t have a blanket answer. Today was a good day. I got a raise from my temp agency. I got confirmation from my friend that he’ll shoot the short film I wrote and will act in.

    Perhaps tomorrow everything will fall apart, and I’ll want to crawl into bed and cry. But even bad days at least make me feel like I’m trying.

    I do it because at least I’m trying. Because I would have much rather tried then to be back in my hometown too scared to attempt to make it.

    Is it worth it? I don’t know the answer to that. But at least I’m willing to try and figure it out.

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